What Will Become Of My Future?
Have been thinking a lot about my future lately and truthfully I become uneasy every time I have to think about it…. 
It’s not that I do not trust that God holds my future in His hands and He have the best plans for me, no, but I am currently in some pressure to have some assurance about my future here. Jobless and counting only three months towards finishing my MBA study now, I do not know whether His plans is for me to stay here longer in Singapore or to return in Indonesia by February or March next year. I need to know this because my friends have been thinking about bringing me in to more ministries that are more long-term, such as committees and likes, and for this, they need to know whether I would be here longer or not. It would be bad, let’s say, if I join an Easter preparation committee for next year but later on quit just weeks before the D-Day because I have to return to Indonesia for good.
From my perspective, there are two possible reasons why my future is undecided at this point:
- God wants me to “wait” and believe in Him. So the ministries will have to wait too, He might have something in plan. Trust Him. Wait. Shoo~! Don’t rush Him, all will be good in His time.
- I am just too damn lazy…
I have never applied for work before and I do not know what kind of work I am interested to do, so I tend to just wait and wait without doing any proper action. Before I know it, February will come and I will find myself jobless then. As for what kind of job I want to do, all this time I’ve been doing a lot of ministries and I am not feeling like wanting to collect a lot of money or to become filthy rich. As long as my income is enough for me, my family and my ministries, that would be enough (grant us our daily bread o Lord, give me neither poverty nor riches — lest I be full and deny You, and say, “Who is the LORD?” or lest I be poor and steal, and profane the name of my God; Proverbs 30:8-9, The Wisdom of Agur).
The first and foremost criteria for my future work is that it should not be in the way of my ministries - i.e. working on Saturdays (maybe possible only up to 12pm) and Sundays are not acceptable. And for my job preference, maybe it should be something that can help others, empower others and bring others unto a better life. An HR job might be suitable, but I do not have the expertise nor the background. The most possible job for me is to become a consultant or give seminars and workshops, but to this, first I will need to be the understudy of someone who has been successful and has been long enough in this field - and I do not know how can I do this in Singapore and how or who to apply to. In Indonesia, I can work as the understudy of Mr. Tanadi Santoso or Yakoeb Ezra or other trainers/seminar people I personally know, but this would mean having to leave by next year 
If somebody in Singapore can help me to get in touch with a consultancy firm that I can get in to, I would greatly appreciate it. If somebody who has known me can also give me a hint on what job I can possibly take, I would greatly appreciate it too. Some of you might have known that I have a Bachelor of IT degree, but right now I am not too concerned on working on the IT field - especially as programmers due to my lack of expertise there (I am only a below-average PHP programmer back then and now I’ve forgotten everything) and the working hours could possibly clash with the ministries. Maybe there’s a suitable job in the IT field that I haven’t known of such as IT consultant, or even an HR department job on an IT firm like my lecturer suggested me (quite possible, but hard, looking at the stress level that most IT jobs have). I have to consider everything and see what is best for me and what God wants for me.
See? Life is hard, it needs a lot of effort to get through it, but I believe with God I can do it. Now it’s just the matter of where He will have me be. My friends, will I have to leave you so fast?
Prayer Request:
Now that you have read this, please help me pray for my future…
