The Forerunner Times

"A life journal by Nathan J. Elias, called under God's grace to be His forerunner and restorer for His glory."

Another post of singleness lamentation…

Well well, sometimes I wonder how things can turn so fast, or maybe it is time that is moving so fast that I am not able to chase it anymore. Back then when I came back in July, these two couples were not there yet. But now, there are two new couples in the Latreia youth, Ipooh - Hermanto (confirmed) and Jambi - Medy (whether or not these two are a real couple or just TTM is still being questioned). It’s not that I don’t believe that things can turn out quick for love, but especially for the first couple, Ipooh just broke up with her previous boyfriend in June/July and now she got another boyfriend in September? Man… that’s quick!

Looking back, I broke up with Juli (the person, not the month) in July 2006. Since then I haven’t thought of it as a priority to find another, what’s with my problem of being an immature person and also due to the fact that I still have to see whether I will remain in Singapore or return to Indonesia for the following years. There are also hints given by some people not to start another relationship so quickly after breaking the last one, to “guard the feelings” of our previous significant other.

But yeah… I’ll admit that I do feel a bit lonely and jealous by the couples I see around me. I know that starting a relationship just for the sake of having a relationship is wrong, so don’t worry, I won’t jump to that. I wasn’t thinking about this at all, until just this afternoon when Netty “hinted” a person - who she thinks is a nice girl - to go for (note: for those who knows the name, DO NOT put in comments or shoutbox!). Errr… no special feelings about her either, but why is it that I always start to look at someone after others “hinted” the person to me? Like what happened after the King & Queen ceremony in last year’s youth camp, at first I was just playing King-Queen with Jambi, but somehow *I think* I got a little bit attached to her after all those “oh my dear lovely beautiful Queen” scenes. Well, maybe that’s what you got when you keep calling someone your queen for a whole year.

Fortunately of course there are still some people that I grew attracted to that was NOT hinted by someone else. Like my previous two girlfriends… and still some others. Guess I am still normal then, haha

Well then, I guess there are still some things to iron out first before thinking about this. My maturity, my future, my education first and foremost. When it’s time, I’ll ask God to help me on this, as I actually have no experience on courting someone, because I did long distance relationships with my previous two girlfriends, so I didn’t court them the common way, never knew how to ask a girl out and things like that. Maybe too late for a 22-almost-23 years old guy, huh? But when the time comes, then it’s time. When it’s not time yet, whatever you do, you will not be able to build a successful relationship - maybe due to immaturity and other issues. I’ll just wait for the time and believe that it will not be too late….

Anyways, congratulations to Maitra & Mariani who will be getting married soon with their Holy Matrimony coming up in 11 November (so the date is 11-11-2006, cool huh?). Thank you for inviting me and I am really-really sorry that I cannot be there on that day, but when I come back in February let’s have a long chat and show me your wedding photos. You two are really my “image couple” with an amazing love story. I wished that I could be like you two but it seems that I cannot. Oh well, God must have another plans in store for me… the time will come for me later to tell my own love story.