Immortality, Eternity and Humanity [Part I]
This entry is an afterthought on Ivone’s post about humanity.
Is it true that humans are the most powerful species on Earth? True, we might have the ability to go the extra mile. But we also have the frailty of age and even though we might last for 60-70 years, in the latter years we won’t be able to do so much things we could do on our youth. What then, about eternal youth, eternal vigor and immortality? Is it better to be a kindred (vampire) rather than kine (human)? I always wanted to be a kindred in the past days, and maybe a little part of me still desire that, the more reason why I am being a fan of Gackt, who claimed to be a vampire born in 1540 (we’ll see about that). I know that’s just wrong and kindred is a being of the devil, but what’s the reason for me desiring so?
Because I have so many goals I need to accomplish in life. Back then I wanted to make a Life Foundation for Music Ministry, because I saw what happened in my choir where the church had too much intervention and control upon the choir, that we in the end become no more than church entertainers. We are given a very limited space to do what we want, the most we can do out-of-church is visit another church, which are mostly still connected with our church. Dear church elders and leaders, we’ve got so much people out there that needs our touch of love and music, see? But why the heck you never give us permission to do tours and mission trips to the places that needs us? You were only moved when there were B-I-G occassion like the Aceh Tsunami, and yet you send medical teams only. Hello, we also want to touch them and sing them songs of God’s love and strength, yeah?
This is the reason why I decided someday I must make my own music ministry that is church independent. But after talks with some people this seems to be a stupid idea and maybe not what God wants, because by being out of church there will no foundation in this ministry, and although too much control is bad, a form of control IS needed, at least there needs to be a congregation/service behind this.
The second one, which I just wanted to make a few days ago is the Life Foundation for Education. There’s a sad story from a friend of mine, Cynthia, who needs to return to Jakarta halfway during her study period in Melbourne because the costs to continue her education was just too damn expensive. “Okay, that’s Melbourne, of course that’s expensive man!” you might say. But hear this, another friend of mine, which is actually sort of like my daughter (she calls me Daddy =p), a 18-years old girl, has been forced out of high school and now have to work because she has no funds to continue education. The same thing happened to my ex-girlfriend and a friend of my sister, this led me to screaming “Why the heck is education so damn expensive?!”
Of course, we can’t have free education because that will be a pain in the a** for the teachers, they need a living too, so I am going to be the one to pay them (with my foundation) and give free education for student. There is also a problem where the students might get lazy and take it for granted because it’s free, which is when I’ll need to smack them. Or maybe I’ll need to make a decent selection/filtering system to sort out the students which I really need to fund, not just everyone.
See, those are my dreams. How many years will it take for them to be fulfilled? 50 years? 100 years? While I think in my present state I could only hold on for another 30 years or so. 40 is God is merciful. That’s why I wanted to have at least a slight bit of immortality, maybe around 100 years or 150 years, and not just long age because I’ll need to remain at my vigorous youth condition to make those dreams reality, so yes, eternal youth. But is this really what God wants? Why do He made us humans imperfect? Do you know? I’ll let you think and post your opinions about it. I already have my opinion about it saved in my drafts folder. I’ll post it once I see a few comments, or I’ll just post it tomorrow.
To be continued…
kalo menurut gua, God created us and ngasi kita definite living time itu agak menentang dari keinginan pengen hidup immortal.
walao main motive kamu pengen hidup longer tuh buat help others and not sucking other people’s blood like other vampire, tetap aja, sejak adam dan hawa, kita uda dikasih fate buat hidup dan juga hidup itu ada akhirnya.
so bout ur dreams, tujuannya emank amad mulia and they are big projects!! really big!! butuh waktu lama sekali buat fulfill 1, let alone two.
if you feel ur life wont be complete until you fulfilled one, boleh aja concentrate and go for it, dedicate urself fully to achieve ur goal.
tapi, dunia makin lama makin jahat and kejam. small project aja uda banyak problem n kadank banyak yg give up, apalage big big big project.
not trying to imply you will give up, but for this kinda super project, you will definitely need helps from other people kan, and mental semua orang ga sama. mission yg perlu a lot of dedication and butuh waktu yg lama ini bisa memungkinkan peserta laen give up.
i think its better to start small.
instead of creating a ministry, bisa saja dilakukan dengan a reasonable-sized group. 10 or 20 people, trying to reach human’s heart with God’s music. Kalo mao jadi missionary yg masuk ke daerah2 laen, mungkin kadank bisa bentrok and ketemu problem dengan financial. and to get a sponsor susah kalo hanya small grup.
and it doesnt matter where, tapi anywhere, even everywhere around you, pasti ada yg membutuhkan. ga perlu pergi jauh2 karena ada bencana alam besar, karena itu butuh financial fund yg besar.
semuanya bisa dilakukan dekat, sembari ngumpulin member laen yg interested and slowly, build the group stronger n stronger and mulai merambah ke kota laen.
quantity might be important but the intention and quality of ur service worth more.
second yg buat help student with financial issue, start small juga. Jadilah orang tua asuh seseorang yg membutuhkan pertolongan. Get personal. Approach the person in need directly, ga usa ikut program orang tua asuh segala macam.
Kita ga dikasih hidup selamanya but its good when you knoe you have touched someone’s heart and change their lives.
Coz even if our main motive it to help people, if we are to live immortally, aren’t we trying to be like God?? and its not right.
Coz only God alone will live forever in his followers’ hearts.
Comment by Violette — June 26, 2006 @ 8:23 pm
Hi, I just read your blog and want to drop a line if you don’t mind. I see in TV that there’s a village in China where the people’s ages are so old. The oldest is about 125 years and she still can do farm-works. I saw her plowing her farm, MANUALLY. I’m really impressed! You can be like that too… I hope.
Comment by Ryan — July 6, 2006 @ 5:44 pm